Heart beat stop upon the time her name appear on my hp.

You are going to celebrate her birthday for her.

She's gonna spend her birthday with you.

You goona be the first one she spend her birthday with.

What else more can I say to you.

You are always so nice to other girls.

You will never know how I felt.

You always think I know you well.

And all I ask for is you to be good.

I start loosing faith on you.

I'm just a kid loosing her way.

What's happening???

I'm so depress here....

I felt so helpless... helpless... :(

No friends understand how I feel...
All blame me for being stupid... Stubborn....
I know they mean well for me...
This turn out no one I can talk to....
Cos' I dun wan them to blame you....

I really dunno who to talk to...
Who to find... I really very upset...
Utterly disappointed...
My heart aching now...
What happen??? Why did this happen???

I try to be strong... I told u I won't cry in front of you...
My dear, do you know there's a lot of things I so wanted to ask you...
I just can't open my mouth when I face you...
I wanted to keep everything in good shape...
I so wanted to maintain it well....

It's being around one year... The kind of relationship I have with you...
So complicated... I so wanted to maintain it well...
Can I went back to the time I just get to know you??
Can we be as sweet as how we use to be??
Though it's not as serious as the last time... But it hurt this time round...

Why do you lie to me again and again???
Why do I have to find out every time u lie or the things you did???
Why is there always a her appear???
Why do I still care every other times these things happen???
Why can't I just let go???

If we are really buddy as what you told them....
Why do u lie????
I just couldn't angry to you...
It just hurt every time u lie....
Be it white lie or the ugly truth...

I try to pretend... I'm just so well in pretending...
But u always told me the truth after everything is done....
I try to hide.. hide my tears and bring my smile out to you...
Do you ever really take a look at me???
Do you know whatever I do.. All just for you....

I put in 100% effort for the things I do for you...
Though I ever say I want nothing in return...
But I'm a gal... I'M JUST A GIRL.........
I do jealous too... I feel upset too...
But why can't I just show this emotion feeling out???

I start to know nothing about you....
Which I use to think I know u well...
All the lie make me get one step backward from you...
I start to think are you the person I first start to know....
The friend that who really care about me...

What have I done to make things turn out this way??
What can I do to make me feel better???
I know I still dun have the courage to leave you...
I still miss you every other time...
I still waiting for your mgs every night I tuck in to bed...

I so wanted to be with you...
But I know I can't in this life...
I will wait for my next life...
I will wait... :_)